every time i get high, i tell myself its the last time.
and since its the new years, i figured i would quit for sure.
but stupid me, as soon as it was the new year...midnight...i lit up.
and i really lit up, i smoked untill 420, then i got out the bong.
i had other people there...and i felt so good...happy.
but when i sobered up, it hit me
i hate my life...and the drugs are all i can do to stay happy.
there is nothing that can make me smile, and be as happy than getting high.
i dont think im addicted to the drugs, i think im addicted to happiness, and the drugs are what put me in that state of mind.
but i finally figured out what i truely got my self into...an addiction.
but i dont want help, im to happy stoned to get help.
all i can do now is smoke and pop pills, then when i sober up, i whine because i hate what im doing to myself
I AM A SCREW UP
at least i can finally admit it