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Pennkid: I dont know how to explain it but it was like falling deeper and deeper down a hole until I could hardly even communicate with the outside world. I was always in my own mind and even that started to die until I could hardly feel anything. It was horrible and I went to doctors thinking it was something physical only for them to say I was completely healthy physically. Its like I was slowly dying and there was nothing I could do about it at all. and it still is like that but it seems like my condition has leveled off far away from my old reality.

You may find this link informative: The Inner Apocalypse. I also suggest the companion article if you've not yet read it: Mental Breakdown as Healing.