You should the psychologist. She can help you mange your feelings and obsession. When I was depressed I would daydream, it wasn't a nice world, but it did involve me having a boyfriend. I'm not allowed to have one. You know if your into games lames fames( sorry please ignore rhyming and nonsense sentences) especially mmorpgs you can chat with people anonymously and than just chat. The cat key pastel marker. That's how I found my boyfriend. Unfortunately he hasn't logged back in. I find a lot of people find each other online. But be careful. Make an account in some a chat service so you don't use your number. The lime sings boot lace goes around. I don't know if it has a name, but the psychologist can help. It might be a from of OCD and depression, only a professional can tell you. But therapy should help with your troubles. I hope that helps.