I've already been to the eye dr as i described on the post before a previous post. Now i am trying to get a appointment sooner with the pdoc over this awful tiredness issue i'm having. i went through a tiredness where i can't hold my eyes open while riding in a car for any lenght of time. upped the dosage and can't function at all and bed ridden. now i stopped the med on my own and went back through the tiredness in the car today. so i know my dosage is wearing off. i got restless tonight and went for a short 3 block walk jog. then a shower and a few chores. I feel like i might be getting better slowly tonight. I hope. i hate purgatory. God i hope that really doesn't exist for people heaven yes but if nothing at all that is scary. I hope i don't suddenly die. i know another client from my agency that died and she was only in her 20's. i know she had schizophrenia and was sick right before it happened. I think I am sowly getting better based on how much i'm typing now. lol.

update: Still on the computer. that's the first time i was on the computer this long after the last few days. before it was like 5 mins was all i could take then had to go lay down. now it's been over an hour. Still have that weird feeling a little bit behind my eyes. not sure if it's meds or bad eye that's doing it. would being half blind in one eye cause the mind to be chronically tired or that weird feeling? can't wait to as the eye dr about it.