The last two months almost every aspect of my life changed, I had to move, get a new car and a new job. Anyone looking into my life right now would think things are fantastic, and they are, but it seems like now all the chaos is over I feel worse than ever. It was so financially draining that I finally have money to see my t now but lo and behold she's booked out for another month, same as my aprn. I'm on lamictal which seems to be working aside from the fact that I suck at taking it, and my anxiety pills(its actually propranolol) arent doing anything at all but making me dizzy and wearing off half an hour later.
I started cutting again and I can't escape this thought process that all i'll ever be is worthless. I haven't been able to talk to my so about it either cause he's so emotionally blocked off and having health problems that seem to trump mine.
Honestly I don't know what to do, I'm not noticeably cycling right now but I feel like i'm losing it despite doing everything right.