Between me and my mum we have figured out that my dad is getting drugs for my brother . no he is not a dealer but he has a contact . I see my dad several times a week because he is supporting me with my mental health. I have been craving drugs on an off for some time but luckily I lost all my contacts since moving . the drug he is getting for my brother was one of my drugs of choice . if I asked him him would probably say no because of my history with drugs and my mental health . but if I really wanted to I could I could probably persuade him although he will probably tell my mum. Well I'm not planning to ask him for any. Well not now anyway . but what if I get so depressed and desperate to feel better ? I don't like knowing that he can get them . yes I had figured out that he was getting drugs for my brother but I just ignored all the signs until my mum pointed it out to me recently . she has figured it out too. Its just not nice to know . I wish I didn't know . and also I'm mad at my brother . he stopped talking to me when he found out I took drugs even though he was doing it himself but I had a worse problem with it and moved on to other drugs too which are considered worse to some people . even after I stopped taking drugs he stopped talking to me and practically banned me from my mums house because he lives with her , even though the whole time he has been taking drugs and still is . my mum and dad are not living together . they have been separated a long time