Thank you all. Yes, I suppose being attacked on that other forum is still rumbling around. I am not over it yet and it still haunts me.

@bearguardian, thank you. I have been writing poems to let it out. I think this is helping in terms of a form of therapy. I wish I could just delete the memories. Sigh. (((hugs)))

@Hopingtrying, thank you as well. I think I am at the tail end, I just wish it would end already. (((hugs)))

@Shaz, thank you. Yes, I am very stressed due to my job search, too. My current boss used to bully me, but she can't anymore due to HR intervening, so that can't be it. (((hugs)))

It must be due to this other forum haunting me still. I am still in contact with friends from there and my bf still posts on there, so I cannot fully escape from it. I need to come to some sort of peace with this... guess I will keep writing poems on here and letting it all out.

I just hate waking up feeling scared and paranoid that something is in my room with me. That's how I feel after one of these nightmares. It feels so real.