You were going to quit Friday because you were out & didn't have any money, but somehow managed to smoke through the weekend...& as a result a friend wound up smoking, then you nearly missed the shift on your new job. I'm not preaching, but given the terrible misery you seem to be going through & being unable to quit on a timetable, you're certainly not being whiny! It sounds to me like you really want to quit...or at least have good reason to.

I've mentioned it before, but living in Canada I'd bet that rehab might be a possibility since it doesn't cost a gazillion $$$ like it does here in the States! Is that something you'd consider? If not, why don't you at least try that meeting tonight? Sending good vibes your way...