How to reconcile, “accept” being the scapegoat. How to have “empathy” for the family of origin who had no empathy for me. The family who turned against me and abandoned me.. How to not hate the inner (me) ... who was hated without cause or for so little cause. They closed the door on me, slammed it shut in my face. (The whole “family” of origin) How to even want to stay alive. I don’t know

I was “doing ok” in a sense, until a few years ago. More traumas

I’ve had many abusers who....... I won’t go there

I’m not “good at life” whatever that means. I’m kind of surprised I’ve survived so long. I’m keeping on trying to survive, I just wish it could be easier (easier for others too)

This is a question about trauma (so just “moving on” doesn’t work)

I’m allergic to all the psych meds I’ve tried (many) and trying new Meds, and doctors, freak me out. They trigger me.