The big question, how to let go of the hate towards those who abused us. Some of them painted us as the abuser as well.... no. Wrong, just wrong. Step ... maternal unit. A very very sick woman. I could try to forgive her? Can you force forgiveness? I don’t think so. And I doubt if she would forgive me, for even breathing oxygen

I really don’t want to hold onto hate, it does take up a huge amount of energy, this is true. . But fear, including “irrational” fear is worse .. a worse feeling. I’ve been told by doctors in so many words my fears are irrational. But sadly, not all of them are irrational . (scary health stuff, I don’t want to go there )

It’s a sad scary world, this has been my experience

There is much beauty, if I didn’t appreciate this, I’d be dead by now

I’m an idealist at heart, i believe in forgiveness... but I’ve found that many people do not.

And to forget? I don’t even think this is possible.

Online, people
are free to use ignore if a person or posts trigger them.

Doctors trigger me. I can’t “ignore” them