I have been feeling like I’m going down a steady slope for a long time now and I’m certain there’s nothing to do about it anymore. I’m to the point where I feel like I’m going crazy and scared and sad all the time. My thoughts keep becoming negative. I was sexually abused as a child but I also feel like I’m going crazy in general. I feel so different from everyone like I cannot connect and I have no one to relate with. I’m just scared of how I’m going to turn out if I keep feeling like this. I have been admitted into a mental hospital before due to overdose because I was feeling suicidal. I feel terrible for hurting so many people from my overdose, but I really don’t want people to feel sad. I’m just done here and I want out. I’m scared and nervous and sad and I would rather be sleeping all the time. I truly do not know what to do at this point and I just wanted to post about it so people could see and possibly understand.