I know coworkers are not obligated to be friendly, just courteous. And if she had never been friendly, I woulda never looked up to her. She was nice to me and liked me until she realized I look up to her.

Looking up to someone generally means admiring their qualities, wanting to be like them, and wanting to be around them.

I was too embarrassed to reveal it before, but that colleague I look up to is my supervisor. And I'm so mad right now. Earlier this week, the district manager (her boss) told me (and documented it) that I shouldn't just come in on my days off. She said I've been doing that too much. And I shouldn't listen in to a conversation she had with my supervisor. Ok fine. But then, a few of my coworkers revealed that they also looked up to my supervisor and she doesn't get mad at them. Now I'm simmering with jealousy.

One of these coworkers had a birthday recently. My supervisor wrote happy birthday on her schedule. So I went in on my off day to request she do the same for me. It got back to me that she would. I just need to give her my b-day and my caseworker's phone number. WTF ever! I'm done.