The issue isn't "looking up to". The issue is violating people's boundaries and borderline harassing your supervisor.

If you have a caseworker, talk to them about it. You need help learning how to navigate workplace. Is this your first job? Are you a minor? I had students who insisted that because they wanted something, it had to happen regardless how others felt about it. Getting a girl to be their prom date or having a classmate to come over etc etc i had a student who was fired from his first job because he ate during his shift, it was no matter what rules said, he didn't care because "he was hungry". It is a work in progress learning that just because you want something, it doesn't have to happen/learn boundaries especially for someone with social skills deficit

Seek a professional help with this please.