You're hiding behind the phrase: "looking up to someone." This is not honest.

People at work do not appreciate your intrusiveness. If you don't know what that word means, google it. Here's a start:

The definition of intrusive is someone or something that invades personal space, that becomes too involved or that comes too close without being invited. From: Intrusive dictionary definition | intrusive defined

ADJECTIVE
causing disruption or annoyance through being unwelcome or uninvited:
"that was an intrusive question" · [more]
synonyms: intruding · invasive · obtrusive · unwelcome · pushy · [more] From: http://www.oxforddictionaries.com/us/

You're taking behavior that people find obnoxious and trying to dress it up as something innocent and nice. ("All I was doing was just looking up to people I admired. What's wrong with thaaaaaaaat, huuuuuh?") Either you want to learn, in which case you will be humble enough to take direction . . . . or . . . you will just keep being defensive and act like you can't figure anything out.

In psych facilities, one of the things that staff is on the lookout for is "intrusiveness." Some people with some psych issues tend to have behavior that is described as "intrusive." It's not surprising because with psych issues often comes loneliness. One way that lonely people cope is by looking for attention. It doesn't seem wrong to them. But it is dysfunctional and inappropriate . . . and disrespectful. So psych patients who are intrusive will try to hang around the nurses' station and listen to staff conversation. That's why there is a rule in most psych units that patients are not allowed to stand or sit close to the nurses' station, especially at night.

Ruby, aren't you going to this job specifically to learn appropriate behaviors? So why not take the lesson being offered to you?