Hi S ,

You remember me

OK , steps to take , I can help !! :

If you are not see a therapist already , start.
Tell your T what you are feeling inside , they will not run and hide , trust me.

Be clear to your T and yourself , you are making a life decision here , so think but do not over think !!

After a few visits with T and you feel comfortable , ask for a note of reason / responsibility to take to your doctor or find a doctor.

Tell your doctor or just show the note , they will not kick you out or anything like that , at the very worst , you doctor will say sorry can`t help.

Then find OR ask you therapist to recommend a doctor OR , see an Endocrinologist.
They are the HRT doc`s.

If you start HRT take then at the same time everyday. IE : if you start at 8 am continue at 8 am everyday , I have heard that matters.

After a certain amount ( 4 ~ 6 months ) your Endo. doc might suggest appearing your sex goal full time. Meaning your beard , chest binder ( a bra with no cups ) , male artier we talked about that.

After presenting as male after 8~12 months / Name and document change ( a simple court date . the judge will ask to view the papers and ask what you want to be called , and the judge will say so ruled . you will get the court doc`s needed for work / drivers license ,
In some states you must go thru with SRS to get a birth certificate change , some states not. ( U can thank Trump for mucking that up)

Once you have your documents find a very good hospital , one that is know for SRS . don`t settle for you local hospital unless you live next to a gender friendly hospital. ( no , do not go to Taiwan) , your Endo. doc. would refer you if need be.

After heal and be happy , you are not living a lie anymore !

I know sounds simple , it`s not , talk to your T and your Dr.`s for advice I would get arrested for saying !! LOL

Take care , I hope I have helped

KP. 