I hope you start feeling better soon.

I lost my best friend very suddenly in college. I got lonely and flew my high school boyfriend out to see me for a nice vacation. But it sucked because I was so depressed. He said he didn’t want to see me anymore. I wanted to die.

You know what? I started dating. Second one turned into my husband.

At your young age - just know you have your whole life ahead of you, and things will change.