wow chocolatelover ... i feel so little and big at the same time...

part of my recovery has included learning the lessons of humility...

ive found that as ve risen through my pain, as ive studied words and ideas, that i have in fact gained knowledge, been privy to information, been guided and shown remarkable things...

it was so hard for little me to accept that i was rising and being Divinely gifted...

at one point in time, years ago, i wanted recognition... but that has passed...

i no longer dwell on matters of ego... with God Spirit, ive had no need for self-image...

as i am complimented, i need to recognize what that person is giving of themself... to be aware that this person feels power in their heart to give the gift of compliment...

often in life, complments are handed out so numerously that one begins to doubt the veracity...

often, ive noticed compliments are given in exchange for... fill in the blank..

in my heart, in my mind, i created a sense of worthiness... something for me to aspire to... a goal...

when i recieved compliments that didnt come under that umbrella, or didnt seem to speak to what i was reaching for, i would respond negatively and shed the compliment..

i denied myself the opportunity to build a much needed sense of self-esteem at the time by this self defeating behaviour...

ive learned that to give a compliement (now that i feel worthy) is on of the greatest healing gifts available to us all ...

we all know how it feels to recieve a "valid" compliment... we also probably discredit a few valuable compliments in the process of discernment...

maybe we tell ourselves its better this way... better to let the compliment slide than wear it in unworthiness...

vanity is one trait ive done my utmost to avoid...

thank you chocolatelover... i will accept your compliment in all humbleness and for all that its worth...