So I got up 2 hours early to go to the doctors which started off good . I had no anxiety till it was time to leave . I forgot where the doctors was an it took me an hour to find it when it should of took ten minutes .
I found out they don't do drop in and I have to come back this afternoon. I tried to beg them to fit me in this morning but the receptionist was so rude and uncaring . I cried in the surgery . then I sat on the floor outside the surgery in the dirt and cried some more . I finally got home and called a helpline . I feel calmer now . I think I can do this . I need medication that's why I am going . the person on the helpline said I did the right things . I don't know how crying in the street on the floor is good but she said it was because I didn't let the anger build up. I didn't self harm or worse .