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Hi Sorry I couldn't get here earlier..... I really feel your pain..... I like your tagline.... As the survivor of many new lessons, I can tell you it rings with truth... maybe that is just what you are going thru now..... I know it doesn't solve the problem, but to know how great you will feel when you find the answer might ease the pain a little I hope... I could give you all kinds of ideas about how to enjoy the time alone... but my situation is more like the others.... I finally accepted it was a time to be alone and searched for what I was meant to learn by it... eventually I did come to terms with it, but I can tell you, there were days in the process I know exactly how you feel.... the language problem makes it especially difficult. Whenever I had to chase someone down to spend time with it did such damage to my self esteem, I don't think it was worth the cost... do you have hobbies you could share with others... just shooting in the dark, crochet, or book clubs, or jogging, tennis, other sports, bicycling? You get the idea.... someone up there said all you needed was one good friend, or aquaintance if you prefer, but that one person could lead to others that are more your type... talk about your interests to everyone... maybe someone will mention a place or a club you can check into and go from there... it might take awhile and persistence... as the others have noted, you sound deserving of the best of friends, maybe you do intimidate others.. that's thier weakness, not yours, they may see how well-rounded you are and think they could never match styles with you... keep trying.... there must be someone there in that whole country to be your friend... Hope you feel better soon (((((((((((((heidu))))))))))))

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