Spaz...been there. Nothing I can say will change your feeling. I too, never thought I would find someone. When I stopped looking....he showed up.

I am no peach...in fact, I am usually something that rhymes with witch. But, unbelieveably he loves me in spite...or because I am the way I am. Problems and all.

Just as I love him. Together we'll get through anything. We're getting through his illness.

It will happen for you. My suggestion, focus on loving yourself more (we can all use a little more self-love) and someone else will see what a great catch they've got in you.