You're certainly not alone in feeling that way. I was talking to a 71-year-old friend who remembers diving under his desk in school as part of a nuclear bomb drill in the 1950's - & we're still here. He said, however, that he's as afraid now as he was then. While I'll admit the situation is frightening, we should try to be mindful & focus on matters in front of us that we can enjoy & control. I'm trying to live in the now. I hope you can find some peace.