You're not a screw up, you're an addict. I used the same rationalization that it made me happy, for years, until the misery outweighed any temporary good feelings I got.
Change isn't easy, but it is possible. There's help out there if you want it.
--splitimage
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"I danced in the morning when the world was begun. I danced in the moon and the stars and the sun". From my favourite hymn.
"If you see the wonder in a fairy tale, you can take the future even if you fail." Abba
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