Oh lord...I had been contacted by the animal shelter where I adopted my dog to help them do some fundraising. But we had a hurricane and then my depression got really bad, so I just started following up now. And they let me know they were "going a different direction." I feel disappointed and sad that I feel like my depression and anxiety got in the way of me being able to do the things they needed in a volunteer. It wasn't exactly a firing; it just didn't work out.

I like to be a reliable person; but I have found that depression and anxiety in the past few years have made me somewhat unreliable in my personal life. I've been able to keep it out of my workplace. I make deadlines; I get projects done within the timeline allotted, but I feel like I can't be relied upon for other things outside of work because I use up all my energy just trying to make ends meet. I feel like that is improving, but I just feel bad that this volunteer opportunity didn't work out.

I also talked to the former person who had been doing this specific volunteer work for the shelter and found out that the other volunteers hadn't been very helpful or supportive in this volunteer fundraising. So I don't think it was just me, the impression I'm getting is that they were sort of disorganized, but I really was wanting to do this volunteer work.

Oh well...maybe in the future they'll contact me again. Who knows.

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