its almost like an addiction. I dont know or understand why i am having the overwhelming urge to SI. Things arent totally bad or good either way. Some bad thoughts, some good, some indifferent. Just an overwhelming urge to relieve some wierd kind of pressure. Its odd things like that that are bringing up feelings to si. Its kind of wierd. a slight bit of pressure regarding the possibility of having a new job. Maybe the pressure of wanting it. and needing the money i dont know;...;..just know that its really getting strong and i feel like I wont be able to sleep without at least one cut......

thanks for letting me babble.

colleen