I am currently a junior in college and have been suffering from undiagnosed ADHD since the 1st grade. I was having the same problem as i am currently having. I have excessive amounts of energy that just vibrates throughout me. I start projects all the time and can never find the motivation to finish them. I can't for the life of me focus on anything I'm not interested in. Most of the time it's like when I think, I'm not thinking at all. Like maybe I'm thinking so face I can't follow my own thoughts. And god-forbid i actually force myself to think about something my brain will go completely blank. It's very embarrassing. I forget things too often. For example I could be talking to anyone and right in the middle of the sentence I will get distracted or my mind will wander and that topic is no longer in my mind. I can't remember and it frustrated me a lot. Back in the 1st grade I didn't know what this was so I assumed I was stupid and gave up on school. So my mother thought that maybe it was my friends that were causing me to behave this was. Cause at 6 yrs old how do you explain this to your parents when you don't even understand. So my mother held me back and it was like magic. I started doing better in school but I still struggled with most of those problems. I even started reading at the request of the librarians at my elementary school and then volà here I am enrolling in college and having the same problem 12 years later except I don't know what to do. I have no idea how to maintain my ADHD. My therapist has given me adderall and it pretty much enhanced my ADHD I was all over the place ×3 and was only able to focus on subjects I was already interested in. Then she made me try Vyvanse and it made me feel as if I had bipolar disorder but it did calm me down. Although vyvanse worked too well, I was so mellowed out that I couldn't even motivate myself to do the work I enjoyed. The perfectionist inside of my would cry out because I was missing deadlines, not turning in assignments, and unable to motivate myself to go to class. The reason I am here is because I'm currently failing college from freshman year to now. I can't "experiment" with medication for another year because I now (in 5 days) will have a child that I will be breastfeeding. I have no other option but to seek online help. If anyone has any note, pointers, or anything i will happily try them out. Just please help me learn to manage my ADHD.