I am very much against it because of how it's affected me in the past. L was suggesting today that I should find a psychiatrist willing to try pediatric dosages with me. I think this sounds like too much trouble. And as I feared, we spent the whole time talking about the medication. And how I should get outside. I spend a lot of time outside already.

Just being here with me is the most helpful thing, I think.

Today L was telling me due to my financial situation I should probably consider choosing to work with either her or M exclusively. Ordinarily this would have upset me a lot because I use them as a team but.... today, M was such an obvious choice. It's like L is totally checked out and moved away already. Doesn't remember basic info. I feel so abandoned.

Sorry. I am ranting. But there's no one in my life to talk to.