I read this blog post a year ago, when it was first published, but I found it again tonight and it's really resonating with me:
https://www.time-to-change.org.uk/bl...-schizophrenia
Quote:
...There's so much that's happened to you, that will keep happening, that you don't talk about, just so you can be "normal."
You never realise that it's not "normal" to only admit to half your life.
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I realise that everyone has secrets and contradictions, but...I don't know...sometimes I feel like Atlas holding up the weight of the world, only nobody can see the world that I hold. I have an idea for a bird in a cage: I made two before out of card/paper, but this time I plan to make the cage out of clear acetate/plastic sheets, so that you can barely notice the cage, but the bird is still caged all the same. That's how I often feel. People think that I'm flying free and don't seem to notice that I'm not really going anywhere, but I'm really just making small loops within my almost-invisible cage.
I don't even know why I'm posting this! Mostly I keep these musings for my journal. I guess that maybe I'm wondering if anyone else feels like this, and if so, how you deal with not being able to talk about things that you feel desperate to talk about?? I journal almost every day, but it's not quite the same...
*Willow*