I am thinking about seeking out a therapist and putting it on credit cards, but I just don't want to wind up regretting it. I've done that before...I've felt that I was in a near-crisis situation and began frantically calling therapists' offices looking for someone accepting new patients despite not really having the money for therapy. Then the therapy wound up not helping me at all, and I just felt worse because I was several hundred dollars poorer and not doing any better mentally. I don't know.