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Originally Posted by lucyjon
I empathize, even with the few true friends I have, I hide my pain from them. I tend to keep to myself when I really need a shoulder to cry on. My mother passed away almost two years ago. A homeless woman I have grown to love as a step-daughter is dear to me. Three months ago she was with me and I started to mourn over my mother. I started crying in my step-daughter's shoulder and she told me to stop crying. That hurt so much that I have lost the ability to cry.
Remember you are not alone. I've been diagnosed with Borderline Schizotypal Personality Disorder. I know some people that know me may no longer want to be around me. It's ok. I am used to being alone. Just remember You are special, you have a purpose, and you are loved. Peace be with you
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I'm so sorry you've had to go through that. Thank you for sharing your story, your insight and your thoughts.
I feel like I'm on the other side of that spectrum... I don't remember the last time I didn't cry myself to sleep. I hope I have a purpose... It used to be all I clung too... It, through my career, was the one thing in my life I felt gave me worth... Now, I don't have it and I'm left trying to figure out how I have intrinsic worth... That's totally something I'm nowhere near figuring out but I'm told by my therapist I'm making progress towards that so that's a start.
Thank you for the thoughts and comfort though. They were so needed and so appreciated.