I think the PTSD And CEN effected my relationships more than the biploar did. I would chose horrible abusive and emotionally unavailable men. The kind of men who insisted on me staying home and not having a job but then would not provide for me. Wouldn't give me money to buy a magazine or get my hair done. I spent a lot of time feeling worthless and humiliated.

After I dealt with these issues I met my husband online in a game not on a dating sight. We hit it off and started private chat. Then it moved to phone calls. Then we met in person and hit it off. We clicked. We've been together now for 14 years. MArried for 10 years. He is very understanding about my bipolar and is happy that I get treatment take meds and am relatively stable.