My dear friend.... we need to communicate more!
(((((((((((Colleen))))))))))))))
PM me whenever. I may not always be around, but I'll also respond as soon as I can.
Glad you were able to talk to your T for a few minutes. How are you doing at the moment?
I do know the addiction of SI pretty well - when it starts to lose it's grasp on you with having solid reasons to SI (like a trigger or extreme stress) its like your entire mind tries to convince you that you need to do it. You don't really, and that's the hardest thing to learn/accept.
I care about you, because without you I'd be a miserable wreck a few times.

Be good to yourself, because you're important.
Have you thought about making a list of reasons why it's not worth it SIng? There's a post in the main forum but if you make your own list and keep it somewhere to look at ... it can help to remind yourself that you are worth it. You are important. And you don't deserve to hurt.
Love ya.