Sometimes I remember why I avoid people like a plague.

This is something I got a lot in college. I'd sit around on the stairs, purposely in the way, while people planned and prepared for their evenings out. And be completely ignored.

So I don't get out much. The most I go out is to family gatherings, about once a month, but even that... backfires horribly. Today was my nephew's baptism, which was meh enough being around that many people... but then, pictures afterward, everyone bubbling about... and I found myself sitting off to the side, completely ignored. I know everyone was focused on the kid's day, but they were doing every combination of family under the sun, and no one felt like including me in any of them.

The feeling of being... halfway there. There but invisible. Being there... pointless. Kinda crashed inwards by the end of it and left while they were still standing around talking.

Going to lay down and try to sleep it off.