im feeling bad about my presumably straight woman crush. No one seems to understand me. Nothing working any more. She may about my feelings and has been avoiding me. Back in July someone sent her my journal entries. I admitted to being attracted to her. She's an older woman (60) so she may not be open to it.

I find myself wanting to have a relationship with her. I'm depressed over this unrequited love. I'm embarrassed over her and afraid I will cry if she asks me about it. I don't want to bring it up with her. I don't want out myself if I'm wrong about het finding out. However I just have intuition that she knows.