I have very strong plant medicine that always knocks me out, m.Hirsuta. if it's not touching this with a full teaspoon of it when usually it's 1/8 that then not much will.
My first inpatient years ago, they spent three days pumping me full of stuff one after another to help me rest and it didn't do anything. I know this feeling and it just consumes like hot fire until my whole body feels like I'm burning. It's adrenaline, pure and simple, in full flow and there's not an off switch sometimes. It seems like it feeds itself inside me. It makes me more aware more angry and aggressive but I'm not ever a physically violent person. Nobody will get hurt here, no one else ever does. I'm not going to hurt myself, I'll just sit in the corner under the desk and scream into this pillow some more because it really physically hurts when it's like this.
The asshole that told a drunk person drive waited until after 2:30 PM to check-in. He and I are done