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Originally Posted by Rincad
I often feel like a bird in a cage that no one can see. My last therapist thought all I had to do was to go to school make more friends and the voices would go away. I can't simply lift the lever nor lore core can I unlock it. I try very hard to unlock it. It always leaves me exhausted. Pigeon fools high school for the back. Where was I going with this?) I know my sister and brother think I'm free. But I'm chained hained fained in my brain within the bars of my skull. The key to open it I'm told, is by taking medication, going to therapy, and having support. Then I am left to lift the lever.
The rose court in light corn. I used to journal, I really need to get back to it. It really does help. Honestly I don't deal with ith lith it very good. I'm sorry that I'm no help in the section. I think maybe writing down a inspirational quote or word( I don't do this but I think it might someone more optimistic bilsctic lipstic) I journal my thoughts and make it into a story.
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Thank you Rincad, I feel like you understand where I'm coming from. Although I'm sorry that you can relate
I have people to talk to about lots of aspects of my life, but not certain things. I've recently started socialising a lot more and meeting new people via my walking group and meetup.com but there are lots of things that I can't talk to anyone about because they don't understand even when I do try, and most of them aren't safe for various reasons.
Medication doesn't work for me. If pdocs thought it was worth me taking it, they'd have put me on a CTO when I was released from rehab and I'd be forced to take it, but even they agree that it doesn't help me and it worsens my quality of life with all of the side effects. I can't get therapy on the NHS, can't afford it privately, and I'm not sure that I'd trust a T with this type of information either. And I can't talk to my support system about this for many reasons.
I guess that I just find a way of being ok with having no one to talk to about certain aspects of my life, or at least pretending to myself that it's ok, and keep journalling about what I can...
Anyway, thanks everyone for replying. I shouldn't have posted this thread in the first place, sorry.
*Willow*