I asked my mom about going into pre-pharmacy university transfer in January for 2 years. I'll have to apply as a mature student because I'm 21 or I'll have to do online chemistry grade 12 which I did do but I went to the hospital and couldn't do the second half of it.

Some other courses too would prepare me for it but I'll be learning the same stuff at the start anyways. The things I haven't learned in high school will just be small bumps to overcome and more of a challenge from what I'm not prepared for in comparison to the colossal amount of studying I'd have to do anyways.

I can't really comprehend what I'm doing right now but I feel like that's what I want to do and it makes good money. Then I have money to travel the world, not have to rely on disability and do what I want to do and be independent. I would use disability for something good for the time being to move into my apartment and study.

I've always been interested in molecules and what they do to the human body but it also involves a lot of memorization. Even though you'll forget some of the molecular structures and such, you still have to memorize them. But there's so much more than that. It's a bachelors of science in pharmacology.

If I can't do this, I would love to have a job that works with the understanding in physics and radiation.

I'm in a good stable mind now so I believe I can do it on this Invega injection. I'm ambitious about going to school because I know what it's like to have to work jobs that I don't want to do. My heart is ok so maybe I can go back on Concerta to help focus idk. At least I'm not tired anymore.

The only problem is that I self medicated with drugs and used them because I was bored. I don't really have cravings for them and if I really want this job, I will have to stay clean for the rest of my life which is my plan.

My mom told me to tell my dad about it. He did he would pay for my schooling. I think I should go for it for that reason if everything is paid for.