That is, if I'm even seen at all. It often feels like I'm invisible. It doesn't matter how much I stand up for myself. I'll never actually be respected. I can yell until I lose my voice completely and it would all be for nothing. I express how I feel, I'm ignored. I raise my voice a little (just enough to be heard) and I'm immature. I'm being unreasonable. I'm out of line. It's how things were for me as a kid and it continues regardless of how much I've grown as a person. Family probably won't take me seriously at my own funeral. At least I would have provided folks some good ol' entertainment during my life, though, as they watched me make an utter fool out of myself time after time, hoping to be regarded as a real, meaningful human being and failing miserably as it seemed they all knew I would before I even stepped up to the plate. End of another pathetic, whiny post. Thanks for reading.