If I had much cravings for the research chemicals that I researched the hell out of and then tested on myself, I would say "One more time" before I quit for the rest of my life. But I don't want to one more time.

I feel happy thinking about my future in a good way because I have something to look forward to and learning is great so I can enjoy myself to get where I want.

Isn't that what life is.. Either suffering for the content, hedonia, etc of what you want in the present, enjoying yourself as much as the goal that is completed or even better, enjoying it even more than the goal

I'm not afraid of the English classes that I will have to do anymore either because I'm better at writing than I was in the past.

Also I'm going skiing on December 3rd for my moms birthday as well as Christmas so I'm looking forward to that as well.