I've put up threads on my role as caretaker before. The issue right now is me being uncaring and possibly depressed. I'm in bed around the clock, sleeping and sleeping like I had the flu. I barely go out to see what my s.o. needs. He just sits in front of the TV hour after hour. I haven't properly fed him today. Yesterday I got angry and shouted at him about his refusal to keep his feet, which are swollen, up on on a ottoman. This is the worst I've been, since I've been caring for him over the past 3 plus years. I feel like I don't care anymore. I have to pull it together, or give up. Giving up isn't the easy solution some think it is, either. If I wasn't doing this, I could be just as depressed, if not worst.

I've never had children. This is kind of like being cooped up with a 2&1/2 year old who needs me for every, single, blessed thing. I fel like I know what postpartum depression feels like.

Of course, you can't as easily ignore a small child. They fuss and cry. My boyfriend just contentedly sits watching a baseball game on TV, forgetting he didn't get lunch.