You might want to schedule in some other activity for your days off. Find somethingvthat gets you around other people. Maybe volunteer to help out at some good organization. The local animal shelter could probably use more help. Find something that you'll get praised for, if you do a good job. You will likely meet people you may admire.

It kind of seems like maybe you are looking for a parental figure. Maybe your own parents aren't providing you with the combination of leadership and affection that you need.