This is going to sound weird, but I have an obsessive fear that anxiety is going to take over my mind and ruin a special moment. What happens is whenever there is a special moment coming up and I focus on having fun the thought of anxiety pops up and I panic. This then leads me to dwelling on my anxiety and I can't make it go away, which then leads me to more panic about anxiety ruining a special moment. It's horrible and I'm worried that I won't manage this effectively.