I have this online friend I met about a month ago. We got really close really fast and I liked her a lot. She was the first person to ever care about me and my problems, and she was the only one I could talk about my mental health to. She came to me about her problems too and we helped each other. It was the best thing to ever happen to me and I felt like I was getting better for a while after I met her. I didn’t know the things I was going through were mental disorders, I just thought there was something wrong with me but she helped me realize a lot of things about myself.

But recently she just kind of disappeared for a couple days and I freaked because we used to talk like as often as possible considering our time zones. I didn’t tell her but I had a full-blown panic attack because my dad was yelling again and I couldn’t talk to her, and I was also worried sick. I almost cut myself for real that night and it was terrible, I needed her so bad but she wasn’t there. She came back but now she’s not as active in any of the group convos we have, and she doesn’t really seem to care about me anymore. I have no idea why and I miss her so bad. It was like I was in this happy dream while I met and talked to her, and it just overwhelmed me when I had to come back to reality and realize I was alone again.

The thing is, she kind of had a crush on me (she’s bi) for a while but I told her I was straight, and I think she’s leaving me because she got over the crush. I don’t think she’s going through problems or anything because she does text really briefly at times and she seems happy. And by normal circumstances she would have told me if there was anything wrong; I asked her if she was okay but she was just like "I was busy, sorry". I don’t know anymore, I miss talking to her so much but she doesn’t care about me anymore.