I slept 12 hours! I feel more ok now, but a little jittery anyway, like from too much coffee. My inner voice isn't screaming and I was able to meditate for around 20 minutes with complete relaxation. I think I might have a different condition that affects my manic symptoms or something. I read there's adrenaline disorders that cause your body to keep releasing it though you don't "need" it. That's exactly what that felt like and does feel like at times, everything gets cranked to max then just keeps getting turned up anyway. Totally wrecks my insides when it does that too. Physically ill this morning, like the flu, just from the hard crash.
Time to start working out anyway