I am still fighting the urges to harm myself. I feel like two people in a constant arguement, 24/7. I am hoping the pain will at least let up some, so I can get my footing back. I called my trauma T yesterday, was having such a bad day, but never heard back from her, I wish my T was here, at least he would help me re-group. But I am taking it moment by moment, and trying to stay busy, not stay in bed or on the couch all day. I took my daughter and came to a motel yesterday, just for the night to get away from my husband, we will head back today, I knew I couldn't stay there and listen to his stuff, and I couldn't leave on my own, I don't trust myself right now.