Yes I agree l. I think she already knows. As far as her getting my journal entries. Despite me having double Authentication my iCloud got hacked. In the entry I admitted to being attracted to her. My journal entries got sent to everyone in my contacts which includes her and her coworkers.

Another way she could have found out was someone told. I disclosed in a church support group that I had crush on a woman. I didn't give anything specific just admitted I liked her. The support group was helping me and I enjoyed.

Another is that she knew I liked her before I did. Every once in awhile I will meet someone that knows I like women no matter how well I hide it.

Why do want to befriend her to see how affirming she is. If i get to know her and find out she is not affirming I will never tell her. I'm not trying to get with her anything. I just want a friend. Someone to talk.

Having a crush on this woman is not something I'm proud of. Liking women is not something i share with just anyone and that includes my crush. I'm very closeted.