terribly depressed today ....so much so that I stared and stared at my pill drawer and thought how easy it would be.....havent had thoughts like this for ages.....

I am so depressed I wrote a poem, about summer....and I havent been out of the house on weeks in daylight....I am going out soon to take my dog.....there is no other option, I f I dont, I will literally go mad......

I am acting so much today, my husband thinks I am ok .... inside I am dying

I dont know why I feel like this .......

I just had to put it down .......

now I am going outside and my legs are like jelly

Kerry