i feel so angry... i tried to stay in bed as long as i could... going to lay back down and try to watch a documentary...

i just dont want to exist anymore, i dont want to go through this, im sick of it, sick of everyone, sick of this planet, sick of myself

i want to say i cant take it anymore, but having other thoughts in my head to battle that thought and other thoughts like it becomes so tiresome, not being allowed

i want to die

i not being able to understand the whys i shift thought boxes from one perceptive wave to another...

just want to sleep for ever...

so angry having this mash up of perception of the world exist within.. not even just the world... of who and what i suppsed to be...

just want to hide from everyone

just wish i had some weed... it would calm it all down...


i think i am being overwhelmed... i need to escape... i need to get away from this place...
no one has done anything to me externally, i have been alone all day and all night i just am losing control again i guess...

trying to just lay down and not think about anything but the mind races with visions and conversations... think not being able to control it makes me angrier...

so tired of it... tired of this life