This is the reason (well and my BP) that I cannot work. Because of my PTSD, I have an intense fear of women. And if they’re of authority, even worse. I’ve gotten panic attacks at every job because of this. Sometimes I’d spend 30 min in the bathroom having a panic attack or I’d just be told to go home. One asshole boss said “don’t come back until you get on xanax”. Those exact words. And he meant it. I totally get how you feel but does it maybe come from a deeper issue? I had a step monster that ruined my life growing up and now I can’t trust or feel comfortable around women.