Yes! Finally someone has said it! I feel exactly the same way. I am nearly thirty years old and up until now, I have tried over and over to 'force' a relationship with my mother, which just isn't their and probably never will be! I agree with the saying that you chose your friends, not your family. It's sad. And I get jealous over people who have strong bond with there parents. My parents have never hugged me or told me they loved me. They are such negative people and I had to walk away. I'm still in contact but I refuse to get close. It messes me up. I say it to my daughter a million times so she knows it. And I make sure that we are friends before anything else. I'm so glad that you posted this, I thought I was alone!