It sounds like massive guilt. Maybe that's something you can read up on then discuss with him.

Glad to hear you are getting stronger.

Just read your 2nd post. I personally don't think there is a finish line. I don't think these issues go away, but there power over you gets smaller. And we learn to accept them more, and dealing with the emotions can eventually allow ourselves to push them aside more often so that we can focus on living life.

*I'm not there yet, but this is a belief I have after discussing with Ts who have had a huge amount of emotions struggles and who been through their own therapy. Yet, they had 10 times the sessions I had and will never have as I could never afford it.